Dying-At-Dawn

It's been ten years since I am on DeviantArt. I loaded a ton of art up, 759 pieces of different things: fan art, original art, photos and half done comics. I meet some super nice people, a lot of them left, some of them stayed. For the first time I bought a Core Membership a month ago, after some wonderful person bought one for me. And since then, I made some polls and frequently asked about Drawlloween. I thought it will go on like this forever. But since the end of last year, I am feeling that art isn't something I want to do right now. First it was just huge demotivation until it's now impossible to do any art at all; I just don't want to,